Who are you? Who am I? Random thoughts on acting from the Heart

skitchHow well would you say you know yourself? As an actor my job is to study the human condition and reveal what I’ve learned through the medium of film or the stage. But I think before we can tell someone’s story we should at least be able to tell our own. So what are the ingredients of a good actor. Well there are many books, theories, ‘methods’ of study that define this. Much of which is from highly reputable sources, so much more so than myself. I am a beginner, still learning this craft of acting. But from what I’ve been taught and from what I’ve gleaned from the mouths of those I worship in this field. A major component of the craft is the ability to observe. To study, to see.

My acting teacher often tells a story about Al Pacino’s answer to the question, how does one play drunk. What did Al say… you get up and be drunk! I love that story and I often think about it. To get up and do it, wouldn’t we first have to see? But if we are not willing to see ourselves how can we see another? Can we see another if we don’t see ourselves?

I’ve been ‘looking’ at myself lately.  Actually for most of this year I’ve taken seminars, read books, observed the observer, ie me.  I’ve dived deeper into the spiritual, the “paranormal”, the scientific on this quest to discover who I am and why I am and where am I really? I’ve had some amazing revelations about my-SELF.  Some wonderful, some embarrassing, and evidently I feel I’ve had such a growth spurt this year. Where I was cold and distant I feel more warmth (sometimes hot & steamy actually!). Where I was guarded I’m more open. No  more rules to who or what can come into my life.  Because one of the major lessons I got this year is NON-ATTACHMENT. Nothing lasts forever. People, places, things come and go. Ebb and flow. So I’ve been more open in the heart center knowing if it’s uncomfortable or upsetting it’ll be gone soon. If its ecstatic  or breathtaking let in deep, deep, it’ll be gone soon.

And consequently I’ve probably had one of the best showcase experiences in a while. On stage and off stage. Off stage backstage where the real drama can be I lost me temper never, why because I’m having an moment, an experience and I need to savor it because it will be gone soon. On stage I was free, flowing with divine instinct. I allowed my SELF to have to the orgasmic pleasure of  a live audience, because it will be gone soon.

So I’m going deep into the deep. My motto

“Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me” Psalm 42:7

Who new the Bible could be so erotic.


With Passion,




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I am on cloud nine. I must say this is definitely a summer highlight. This summer is turning out to be the best one yet! I was lucky enough to see the talented & sexy Blair Underwood in Shakespeare’s Othello at the Old Globe theater in Sand Diego. Was the 2 hour drive worth it. Hell yes!  No words. No words. I loved it!  I went with two of friends and because the production had been selling out we had separate seats yet we all had the same reaction. We all loved Iago played by Richard Thomas.  He was evil, he was a sociopath, yet he had charm and that’s what made this performance work for me. You knew he was bad to the bone, no remorse. Yet his charm took the edge of, so I didn’t hate him, what Iago did yes, but I was thrilled by it, intrigued even.

Also performance to note the Amelia played by Angela Reid. My god her last scene, the one between her and Othello. The woman was on fire. She killed it. Passion, passion, passion. But for her entire performance was noteworthy. She had a point of view at all times. I knew how she felt about Iago, I knew how she felt about his feelings for her. I knew how she felt about Desdemona. She was great. I loved her.

And then there was Othello. Yes Blair Underwood. Dreadlocks, white shirt (unbuttoned), accent, sword. Need I say more, and I haven’t even gotten to his acting. First of all his voice, the entire cast actually, such strong voices. He had so much swagger, his energy he commanded the stage yet he was never out of breath. His Othello was sexy, powerful, confident. Did I believe he loved Desdemona oh yes. Did I believe he felt betrayed, abused, made a fool of. Yes I believed him through and through. From the moment we first encounter Othello he enters the room. He commands the stage and you know he knows he is “the king”.  One of my favorite scenes was between he and Desdemona as he is asking her for the handkerchief. He went from tender, to seductive to angry, to menacing, it was such a great moment. And then of course for me his climax when he kills Desdemona and then the moment he realizes what has happened. I loved that moment as well.

But what a testament to Shakespeare’s writing.  This was my first experience of Othello in it’s entirety. I had seen scenes from it in class and had watched bits of the great Maggie Smith’s performance, but i had not actually seen the full play.  So I am grateful that this was my first experience with it because it was indeed a thrilling one.  You won’t be able to see this performance but if you have a chance to go to the Old Globe do so it is such a gorgeous venue.


At The Movies – Dawn of The Planet of The Apes

Loved it!  Loved it, loved it, loved it. I always love it. What did I love. Jason Clarke, and my absolute favorite Master Gary Oldman. Top of my list of people I’d love to work with. This movie has heart, which is why I think they work. Andy Serkis does such an amazing job of giving Caesar heart and soul. You care about him and thus forget that this is an ape that speaks.  It’s so easy to suspend belief when the emphasis is placed on character as opposed to effects, which is what I feel they do with this film.  I feel the film is about community, connection, acceptance and tolerance. If you haven’t seen it and was considering to do so please do go ahead you won’t be disappointed. MV5BMTgwODk3NDc1N15BMl5BanBnXkFtZTgwNTc1NjQwMjE@._V1_SX214_AL_You will leave with and open mind and an open heart.


Etsy Love

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I am a big crafter! Though I actually dislike that term. I prefer artist, creator. I appreciate the handmade. No I love handmade products.  So for the longest time I’ve wanted to start a new series which features my best Etsy finds. There is so much great talent on Etsy and as an artist I want to bless and promote the art of others as much as possible.  So here’s a look at my first round of Etsy Love.


  1. I love the jewelry made my Jessica. She has great pieces and is such a lover of what she does. These are my favorite rings but her drusy quartz rings are a close second.
  2. I Love this husband and wife team behind Pegandawl. The old weathered look of the bag really works for me. This is great hand work!
  3. I’m a fan of personalized jewelry and WhirlyBirdDesigns does a fab job with this. I especially like this pendant
  4. This company DolceAve has some very cool eclectic pieces. Bright colours but a firm aesthetic if you know what I mean.
  5. Sorry but I have to mentions Iris’ shop too BlueTwinSpur Also very cook druzy pieces if you love druzy check out her stuff.

Ta ta for now.

Some Link-spiration #9


Happy Monday! I have come across some cool gems across the web. Here’s a look at what was fascinating to me this week!

  1. I have a thing about trains. I absolutely love them, and if I could I would ride in the luxury babies straight away.
  2. There is no harm in working from the bottom up. These women seemed to do it brilliantly.
  3. I don’t need a reason for a tea break. Neither does Sir Richard Branson.
  4. I love to garden and I never thought of growing peonies. Look at the different varieties. Love it.
  5. Advice from Tony award winners & nominees.




ea065-lips-clip-art-16Have a fab weekend!


At The Movies – Maleficent

So I am definitely in a mode of change. Doing things I wouldn’t normally do. Getting out of my comfort zone. Needless to say as much as I love Angelina Jolie I was not planning on seeing Maleficent, at all. But some how I found myself in the theater. My friend Lucy invited me  to the late show, I NEVER  go to the late show but I said yes because change and second it was to see this again I said yes to change. I must say I was pleasantly surprised. Either I’m changing or maybe I don’t really know myself because first I”m enjoying 22 Jump Street and now Maleficent.

 I have to say I am a Disney fan and Sleeping Beauty was my favorite Disney film, which explains a lot about how I approach life and problems but that’s a whole other post. So I was expecting it to be in the same vein, but it wasn’t it was empowering and I was inspired and I just love how they empowered both women. I love how Maleficent had layers as a woman’s heart does have. It was such a beautiful love story. I don’t want to give it away but true love scene really got me and I wasn’t expecting it to be who it was. I was expecting it to be the other person in the room,  and not the obvious choice. But you’ll have to watch it to see !