What is the space between desire and having called. The space between realizing what I want, doing things to get what I want, and then having, living, enjoying, being that which was wanted.
I don’t know what that’s called and I’ve been trying to find words to describe what it feels like. Sometimes its like butterflies in my stomach, other times its like a gnawing vibration almost like a buzz you feel instead of hear.
What would be the word, yearning I guess. I’m yearning.
There are days I like the feeling, it reminds me I’m alive, other days I don’t it reminds that I don’t have something I really want.
I’m learning to live with the later. Enjoying all that I do have, which is a lot.
I’ve learned to dive into yearning, swim in it, simmer in it. And eventually I unite with what I want.
Sometimes it happens quickly, other times it takes years.
I’m not that concerned with the amount time, I was before. Now I’m enjoying the ride, the creative process.
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